[Saturday, February 26, 2005]

:-l cOnFuSeD l-:

someone had just asked me out..

someone had just asked me if i could be his girlfriend..

the problem is, i don't know what to say.. i don't know what to do..

it's not that i don't like him because if i really don't, i could've said "no" right away..

but the thing is, i told him to give me a week or so to think it over..

we were dating.. for like weeks already.. and whenever we go out, i had so much fun.. he's really easy to get along with.. he's funny and everything seems so light whenever we're together..

maybe i like him.. but loving him is another thing.. i don't think i love him yet and basically, i don't want to enter a relationship without the element of love.. because i know, that no matter how hard we try, if only one is loving the other, things won't work out..

he told me that he's falling in love with me.. he even used the words "mahal na kita"--with such difficulty if you ask me--to convey his feelings.. i'm not sure if i believed him.. it's not that he was not sincere when he told me because i felt that he was.. it's just that, LOVE is something so precious for me that i don't think it is possible to fall in love with someone in such a short span of time..

why didn't i say "no"? maybe because there's a part of me that wants to try the relationship out.. or maybe because i don't want to decide right away and regret my decision in the end.. or maybe because i'm afraid that if i say "no", i'll completely lose someone who has somehow become special to me already..

i am confused.. and in 3 days time, i have to come up with a decision.. haaay.. i don't know what to do.. wish me luck..

~*O*~

(,") mAx (",) shed her cocoon at 12:33:00 AM
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