[Monday, July 11, 2005]

:-l WrAp mE iN yOuR eMbRaCe l-:

I'm sad...

I'm soooo scared...

Scared of the future.. Of all the things that I'll be needing to face.. Of all the things that will happen I want to cry, yet I can't.. 'Coz I know it just won't help.. Only God can change the way things are now.. And I'll keep on believing that He will..

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ang hirap pala pag nasa medical profession ka no? may sasabihin sayong sakit tapos automatic tatakbo sa utak mo kung ano ang implication nang sakit na yun, kung ano ang pathophysiology nun, kung paano yun nakukuha, kung malala ba yun o hindi, yung consequences ng pagakakaroon nun, kung paano yun gagaling, kung pwede pa bang gumaling o hindi na, kung mamamatay na ba yung meron nun o mahaba pa ang buhay niya... Ang hirap kasi lahat yun alam mo na kasi napag-aralan niyo na.. sana mas simple na lang ang buhay.. mas mabuti pa nga sigurong wala ka na lang alam.. nakakadepress lang eh..

tulad halimbawa sa ganitong sitwasyon:
Max: sis, alam mo ba.. kawawa yung patient ko.. may necrotizing enterocolitis siya..
Alexa: huh?! Ano yun?

o kaya...
Mommy: Liver CA ang dianosis sa kapatid ng lolo niyo..
Max: huwaaaat?!? naku mi.. kawawa naman siya.. (kasi alam ko agad ang implication ng pagakakaroon ng liver CA..at siyempre sobrang lungkot ko nung nalaman ko yun..)
Bro and Sis: *No reaction*

bakit kaya hindi pwedeng ganto na lang..
Friend: Max, may pneumonia raw yung baby..
Max: huh?! Ano yun?

Eh di sana ang simple ng buhay di ba.. minsan nga mas mabuti pang wala ka na lang alam..

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i'm in the middle of a very difficult situation right now.. buti na lang andiyan si God.. He keeps me strong.. sana malagpasan ko tong problema na to.. please pray for me... I'll be really grateful for the prayers..

Wrap me in your embrace, oh God..

"I don't want a wasted life. We only live once and I want to live mine to the fullest. I want to be fruitful and productive. And most specially, I want to make the most out of the life that God lent me. "

Present expression: My Ga!
Current goal: Do well with my community duty (sana pumasa ako!)
Curently missing: Sehl, Irvin, Eds, Gell, Ice, Lors.. (friends, where art thou?!?)
Last movie I've seen: Fantastic Four
Wanting to watch: If Only
Currently feeling: Super scared, worried, and stressed..

~*O*~

(,") mAx (",) shed her cocoon at 7:57:00 PM
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[Friday, July 08, 2005]

(,") I sTePpEd.. BuT mIsSeD.. (",)

Whew i missed blogging.. this busy schedule i'm on right now keeps me away from the cyberworld most of the time.. classes from 7-12 then 1-5:30 everyday enables me to do nothing else but sit, listen to the lectures, eat, and listen to the lectures yet again.. it's a good thing robinson's ermita exists.. or else, i'm dead.. hehe.. at least i can still stroll around the mall a few minutes after my classes before i go home.. (",)

despite my busy schedule, i still find time to do the major thing that keeps me sane--watching movies.. recent movies i've seen (mr.&mrs. smith, monster-in-law, nasaan ka man, batman begins, war of the worlds, and fantastic four..) were really good.. helps me unwind..(",)

haaay.. exams strike again.. 3 exams next week.. N-105 third exam, N-105 finals, and math 101 first exam.. Max.. isang malaking GOODLUCK sayo..

sabi ko na hindi na dapat ako nagblog eh.. magrereklamo lang naman ako.. hehe.. pero bakit ba? blog ko naman to.. walang pakialaman.. hehe..

Yes, I was misunderstood.. I'm really sorry for what happened.. I didn't mean to hurt anyone.. Specially a very good friend like you..

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Present expression: Sosyal! (Sushal!)
Current goal: pass all my exams..huhu..
Curently missing: Sehl, Irvin, Eds, Gell, Ice, Lors.. (friends, where art thou?!?)
Last movie I've seen: Fantastic Four
Wanting to watch: If Only
Currently feeling: Bothered and stressed..

~*O*~

(,") mAx (",) shed her cocoon at 10:52:00 AM
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