(,") a LiFe AdOrNeD WiTh sMiLeS (",)

[Monday, July 11, 2005]

:-l WrAp mE iN yOuR eMbRaCe l-:

I'm sad...

I'm soooo scared...

Scared of the future.. Of all the things that I'll be needing to face.. Of all the things that will happen I want to cry, yet I can't.. 'Coz I know it just won't help.. Only God can change the way things are now.. And I'll keep on believing that He will..

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ang hirap pala pag nasa medical profession ka no? may sasabihin sayong sakit tapos automatic tatakbo sa utak mo kung ano ang implication nang sakit na yun, kung ano ang pathophysiology nun, kung paano yun nakukuha, kung malala ba yun o hindi, yung consequences ng pagakakaroon nun, kung paano yun gagaling, kung pwede pa bang gumaling o hindi na, kung mamamatay na ba yung meron nun o mahaba pa ang buhay niya... Ang hirap kasi lahat yun alam mo na kasi napag-aralan niyo na.. sana mas simple na lang ang buhay.. mas mabuti pa nga sigurong wala ka na lang alam.. nakakadepress lang eh..

tulad halimbawa sa ganitong sitwasyon:
Max: sis, alam mo ba.. kawawa yung patient ko.. may necrotizing enterocolitis siya..
Alexa: huh?! Ano yun?

o kaya...
Mommy: Liver CA ang dianosis sa kapatid ng lolo niyo..
Max: huwaaaat?!? naku mi.. kawawa naman siya.. (kasi alam ko agad ang implication ng pagakakaroon ng liver CA..at siyempre sobrang lungkot ko nung nalaman ko yun..)
Bro and Sis: *No reaction*

bakit kaya hindi pwedeng ganto na lang..
Friend: Max, may pneumonia raw yung baby..
Max: huh?! Ano yun?

Eh di sana ang simple ng buhay di ba.. minsan nga mas mabuti pang wala ka na lang alam..

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i'm in the middle of a very difficult situation right now.. buti na lang andiyan si God.. He keeps me strong.. sana malagpasan ko tong problema na to.. please pray for me... I'll be really grateful for the prayers..

Wrap me in your embrace, oh God..

"I don't want a wasted life. We only live once and I want to live mine to the fullest. I want to be fruitful and productive. And most specially, I want to make the most out of the life that God lent me. "

Present expression: My Ga!
Current goal: Do well with my community duty (sana pumasa ako!)
Curently missing: Sehl, Irvin, Eds, Gell, Ice, Lors.. (friends, where art thou?!?)
Last movie I've seen: Fantastic Four
Wanting to watch: If Only
Currently feeling: Super scared, worried, and stressed..

~*O*~

(,") mAx (",) shed her cocoon at 7:57:00 PM
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...This Butterfly Is...

Name: Maxiel Miracle Arcaira
AKA: Max, Maxie, Shel
Age: 18 yrs young
Birthday: October 27, 1986
School: University of the Philippines
Course: BS Nursing, 2nd year
Watching: Movies, Ragnarok, Get Backers, Fruits Basket, MTV
Reading: Harry Potter books, Message in a Bottle..Actually, kahit anong librong matripan kong basahin..c",)
Playing: Ragnarok, Suikoden II, Badminton, Basketball, Volleyball
Listening to: Alternative, pop, RNB Loves: God, Family, Friends..To talk, to go out with friends, to sleep, to act, to eat, to smile..c",)
Hates: Vegetables..Disonesty..

...My Wings...

(,") I sTePpEd.. BuT mIsSeD.. (",)
(,") AnG iNiT pO!!!! (",)
(,") QuOtAbLe QuOtEs (",)
(,") LoOk WhO's TaLkiNg (",)
:-l WhErE aRe My WiNgS? l-:
(,") pErSoNaL tHoUgHtS (",)
(,") NikKi + aJa = BaTaNg ViViAn (",)
:-l cOnFuSeD l-:
:O WaAaAaH!!!!! O:
(,") LoSiNg fAiTh (",)

...FLutter Back My Past...

August 2004
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...This is Me...

.max. .jolly. .cheerful. .smart. .open-minded. .confident. .friendly. .approachable. .talkative. .loud. .outgoing. .sweet. .thoughtful. .expressive. .God-fearing. .understanding. .optimistic. .healthy. .pretty (hehe). .cry-baby/iyakin/ mababaw ang luha. .totoo sa sarili. .sobra magmahal. .mahilig magpatawa. .mahilig tumawa. .malakas tumawa. .mababaw ang kaligayahan. .purple-lover. .mahilig sa babies. .mahilig kumain at matulog. .ginagawa ang gusto. .walang pakialam sa iisipin ng ibang tao. .arcaira.

...I'm feeling...

...Wishlist... ~ to fly ~
~ to give my parents everything they want ~
~ to meet Ryan Gosling, Chad Michael Murray, Daniel Radcliffe, and Tom Cruise ~
~ to eat all the delicious food in the world and never get fat ~
~ try scuba diving and sky diving ~
~ silver necklace of my name ~
~ lavender car ~
~ violet PC ~
~ purple guitar ~

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...Quotes...
"..falling out of love is easy but forcing yoursel to fall out of love is like..nothing compares.."
~ sehl

"..Always remember that we get hurt for a reason and we make mistakes so we can learn..Lucky are those who find love but better are the ones who know how to let go of love when it is not meant for them anymore.."
~ aye reece

"..kaya nating magmahal sa loob ng isang minuto, parang love at first sight ba... pero kulang pa ang buhay mo para makalimutan mo ang taong minahal mo nang totoo.."
~ snow angel

"..don't let anyone hold your happiness in their hands.. hold it in yours so it will always be within your reach.. staying happy, is not merely an emotion.. it's also a choice.."
~ anonymous