[Friday, September 30, 2005]
Me and my dear brother! 
Wala lang magawa! Hehe!
~*O*~
(,") mAx (",) shed her cocoon at 7:53:00 PM
it's ben a while since I last wrote something here.. It has been a really busy month for me since the start of my clinical duty.. pero masarap at masaya namang magduty.. ang dami dami kong natututunan.. at natutulungan na rin, hopefully, for that matter.. (",) ~*O*~
(,") mAx (",) shed her cocoon at 6:48:00 PM
I'm sad... ~*O*~
(,") mAx (",) shed her cocoon at 7:57:00 PM
Whew i missed blogging.. this busy schedule i'm on right now keeps me away from the cyberworld most of the time.. classes from 7-12 then 1-5:30 everyday enables me to do nothing else but sit, listen to the lectures, eat, and listen to the lectures yet again.. it's a good thing robinson's ermita exists.. or else, i'm dead.. hehe.. at least i can still stroll around the mall a few minutes after my classes before i go home.. (",) ~*O*~
(,") mAx (",) shed her cocoon at 10:52:00 AM
its so damn burning hot!!! ~*O*~
(,") mAx (",) shed her cocoon at 5:21:00 PM
"Once you learn to die, you learn how to live." ~ Morrie Schwartz (Tuesdays with Morrie) ~*O*~
(,") mAx (",) shed her cocoon at 5:25:00 PM
pagcheck ko ng blog page ko, nabasa ko agad ang tag ng bestfriend ko..muntik na raw ako magupdate ng blog..try ko raw, masaya..haha..oo nga..its been a while.. ~*O*~
(,") mAx (",) shed her cocoon at 2:11:00 PM
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[Sunday, August 21, 2005]
God is really great.. He has given me the strength I have for the past few weeks.. feeling ko nga wala na akong problema eh.. basta nanadiyan lang Siya, nawawala lahat ng worries and fears ko.. 'coz i believe that He'll be there to make everything all right.. (",)
A few days ago, habang nagdidinner at nakkwentuhan kami ni aye reece about God, I came to realize something.. Na bakit kaya maraming tao na nakikilala lang ang Diyos kapag nagkakaproblema sila or otherwise kapag may sobrang magandang nangyayari sa buhay nila.. I mean, may mga taong maniniwala lang na may Diyos nga kapag may milagrong nangyari sa buhay nila.. Why can'y they believe that God exists just for the mere fact na we are alive.. and that everything around us is beautiful.. ang mga tao, ang kapaligiran.. everything was perfectly crafted.. Isn't that enough for people to think the God exists? that He gave us all this.. and for that, we, is servants, should thank Him for everything.. especially for the unconditional love that He is rendering us.. (",)
Ang galing nga kasi kanina sa church, yun din ang gospel..yun din halos ang topic ng pari.. May nagtaning daw kasi sa kanya ang sabi "Father, bakita pa ba ako magpapasalamat sa Diyos eh wala namang nangyayaring maganda sa buhay ko.. Wala rin namang pagbabago.." Hindi pa man sinasabi ng pari ang naging sagot niya, alam ko na.. For the mere fact na buhay ko iho, dapat mong ipagpasalamat yon.."
Naiinis nga rin me sa sarili ko eh.. Kapag minsan nakakalimutan ko nang magpasalamat sa Kanya ta the end of the day dahil sa sobrang pagod.. Naiisip ko tuloy, "bakit ganon?, buong araw may oras ako para gawin ang lahat ng dapat kong gawin--magduty, pumasok sa class, kumain, gumawa ng papers hanggang 3am--pero ang konting oras para pasalamatan Siya, nakakaligtaan ko pang gawin.. kaya pag may pagakakataon, bumabawi talaga me.. at yun din siguro ang dapat gawin ng lahat.. (",)
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Duty ako sa NICU (Neonatal Intensive Care Unit) last week.. Nagkaron ako ng pasyente na 2 days old, may Down's Syndrome at congenital heart disease.. Enlarged ang right atrium and ventricle niya at may mitral and tricuspid regurgitation pa siya.. at may pleural effusion pa.. you can just imagine kung gaano karaming tubo ang nakakabit sa katawan niya.. traumatic talaga for a 2-day old baby.. Actually, taumatic talaga sa NICU.. Mga premature babies na nasa incubator tapos sangkatutak na tubo ang nakakabit sa kanila.. Nung unang day nga sobrang shocking talaga.. I super love babies pa naman tapos you'll see themi their worst conditions.. super sad.. tas on my last day there, I saw na wala na yung baby ko, nagexpire na raw sabi ng CI ko.. nagheart failure daw kasi the night before.. I was really really sad.. Kahit nabigyan na ko ng bagong patient, nakatulala talaga ako.. Naatach na rin kasi me dun sa baby.. Ang hirap din talaga maging nurse.. Dapat hindi ka magpadala sa emotions mo.. I miss that baby.. I gave him the best care I could pero what happened was inevitable.. Gusto na talaga siguro siya kunin ni Papa God para makasama na Niya.. Sigurado ako angel na siya ngayon.. (",)
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It's pretty surprising how you suddenly view life at a different angle.. It's strange how your priorities suddenly change.. you suddenly feel like from being a young, playful, and easy-go-lucky girl, you find yourself thinking and acting like a mature and responsible youn womam already.. scary no? parang hindi ako..hehe.. I don't really understand why pero parang there was a major turn around in my life that happened just lately.. Yung nga, may priorities changed positions.. tapos I feel like I'm more responsible nowadays.. Eawn ko ba.. Epekto siguro nang malapit nang pag graduate from being a teenager.. Ang bilis ng oras.. Nakakatakot nga minsan eh.. Parang you feel na malapit ka nang tumuntong sa totoong buhay.. at dapat magseryoso na.. hehe.. But of course, I still find time to enjoy.. hindi mawawala yun.. (",)
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May bago nga pala akong crush! Ang asawa ko, si Champ Lui-Pio Tan of Hale! Grabeng gwapo! The man of my dreams! hehe! *pictures to follow*
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Present expression: Oh my stars!
Present goal: Do well with my hospital duty.. and pass my Math 101 Lab exam..
Currently missing: Irvin and my baby patient.. :c
Last movies I've seen: Wedding Crashers, Bewitched, and Charlie and the Chocolate Factory..
Wanting to watch: Must Love Dogs
Currently feeling: Happy and relaxed! (Wala me duty next week!)
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[Monday, July 11, 2005]
I'm soooo scared...
Scared of the future.. Of all the things that I'll be needing to face.. Of all the things that will happen I want to cry, yet I can't.. 'Coz I know it just won't help.. Only God can change the way things are now.. And I'll keep on believing that He will..
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ang hirap pala pag nasa medical profession ka no? may sasabihin sayong sakit tapos automatic tatakbo sa utak mo kung ano ang implication nang sakit na yun, kung ano ang pathophysiology nun, kung paano yun nakukuha, kung malala ba yun o hindi, yung consequences ng pagakakaroon nun, kung paano yun gagaling, kung pwede pa bang gumaling o hindi na, kung mamamatay na ba yung meron nun o mahaba pa ang buhay niya... Ang hirap kasi lahat yun alam mo na kasi napag-aralan niyo na.. sana mas simple na lang ang buhay.. mas mabuti pa nga sigurong wala ka na lang alam.. nakakadepress lang eh..
tulad halimbawa sa ganitong sitwasyon:
Max: sis, alam mo ba.. kawawa yung patient ko.. may necrotizing enterocolitis siya..
Alexa: huh?! Ano yun?
o kaya...
Mommy: Liver CA ang dianosis sa kapatid ng lolo niyo..
Max: huwaaaat?!? naku mi.. kawawa naman siya.. (kasi alam ko agad ang implication ng pagakakaroon ng liver CA..at siyempre sobrang lungkot ko nung nalaman ko yun..)
Bro and Sis: *No reaction*
bakit kaya hindi pwedeng ganto na lang..
Friend: Max, may pneumonia raw yung baby..
Max: huh?! Ano yun?
Eh di sana ang simple ng buhay di ba.. minsan nga mas mabuti pang wala ka na lang alam..
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i'm in the middle of a very difficult situation right now.. buti na lang andiyan si God.. He keeps me strong.. sana malagpasan ko tong problema na to.. please pray for me... I'll be really grateful for the prayers..
Wrap me in your embrace, oh God..
"I don't want a wasted life. We only live once and I want to live mine to the fullest. I want to be fruitful and productive. And most specially, I want to make the most out of the life that God lent me. "
Present expression: My Ga!
Current goal: Do well with my community duty (sana pumasa ako!)
Curently missing: Sehl, Irvin, Eds, Gell, Ice, Lors.. (friends, where art thou?!?)
Last movie I've seen: Fantastic Four
Wanting to watch: If Only
Currently feeling: Super scared, worried, and stressed..
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[Friday, July 08, 2005]
despite my busy schedule, i still find time to do the major thing that keeps me sane--watching movies.. recent movies i've seen (mr.&mrs. smith, monster-in-law, nasaan ka man, batman begins, war of the worlds, and fantastic four..) were really good.. helps me unwind..(",)
haaay.. exams strike again.. 3 exams next week.. N-105 third exam, N-105 finals, and math 101 first exam.. Max.. isang malaking GOODLUCK sayo..
sabi ko na hindi na dapat ako nagblog eh.. magrereklamo lang naman ako.. hehe.. pero bakit ba? blog ko naman to.. walang pakialaman.. hehe..
Yes, I was misunderstood.. I'm really sorry for what happened.. I didn't mean to hurt anyone.. Specially a very good friend like you..
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Present expression: Sosyal! (Sushal!)
Current goal: pass all my exams..huhu..
Curently missing: Sehl, Irvin, Eds, Gell, Ice, Lors.. (friends, where art thou?!?)
Last movie I've seen: Fantastic Four
Wanting to watch: If Only
Currently feeling: Bothered and stressed..
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[Thursday, May 19, 2005]
grabe..after classes, I went straight home sa dorm to makeup for the lack of sleep last night because of watching the premiere night of starwars (astig! pwamis! no regrets!)..When I arrived at the dorm, I changed to the most comfortable and lightest clothes I could get from my closet--a very short cotton shorts and spaghetti top..but as soon as I lie down my bed, aba, sweat started seeping its way through my pores..still, I tried to sleep..but after less than 30 minutes of lying there, I can't bear it anymore..The heat was encapsuling my body and the whole room for that matter..I got up, shouted "ang init!!!", got dressed again, snatched my bag, checked my phone, and stormed my way out of the dorm to go to Robinson's place Manila..Yep, I was alone but I didn't mind at all because all I care about during that moment was enter somewhere with air conditioning..after a couple of minutes of window shopping, I got bored so I visited a cybercafe instead (that's where I am now) just to surf the net a bit..I said "a bit" but I'm here for almost 2hrs already..
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At last, summer classes are about to end..Last day tomorrow..Whew..I'm looking forward to having a REAL vacation..I promise I'll make the most out of the 2 remaining weeks of summer vacation..I'll sleep, eat, surf the net, gala, read, text, and watch tv as long as I want..That's what making the most of the summer vaction means to me..hehe..(",)
Our comm3 class will have a summer-ender party tomorrow in Tagaytay at Baby Love's place..Sosyal..Bonding moment classmates! (",)
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Watched starwars episode 3 last night..with chino, josh, and ice..sosyal! mga addict kami..premiere night talaga ang kinareer namin..The movie was great! Sulit ang puyat at Php140 na bayad..hehe..We spent the night at chino's condo unit..Isa pang sosyal! Yaman! (",)
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The heat wave's doing something really unusual to me..I've done two things which I don't usually do on a regular basis: 1) stroll the mall ALONE and 2) wear racer back top at the mall (sa resort lang me naggaganito eh)..Sosyal!
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Someone's making me really happy nowadays..Warning: Danger Ahead..hehe..Thanks to you..(",)
Present expression: Sosyal! (Sushal!)
Current goal: make someone quit smoking..hehe..
Curently missing: Sehl and Irvin..and ____....
Last movie I've seen: Star Wars III (Revenge of the Sith)
Wanting to watch: House of Wax and Bikini Open..hehe..
Currently feeling: sleepy
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[Friday, May 06, 2005]
"I did what no other man has ever done before; I kissed the hands of the person who killed my son."
~ Priam (Troy)
"I loved my son from the moment he opened his eyes to the moment you closed them." ~ Priam (Troy)
"She's all that is not me.. She's my other half and without her, I can never be whole.. Before I met her, I went on well with my life just by being half.. But now, I can never go on with my life without her when I already experienced what it's like to be complete.." ~ Simon (Ashton Kutcher - Guess Who)
"How can a name, not even a real name, hurt this much?" ~ Nicole Kidman (Cold Mountain)
"Don't let go too soon, but don't hang on too long." ~ Morrie Schwartz (Tuesdays with Morrie)
"Death ends a life, not a relationship." ~ Morrie Schwartz (Tuesdays with Morrie)
"It’s been so long since I last wrote something real, so long since I held pen against paper and let pen weep and watch paper bleed, and myself, both." ~ Aaliyah (Things that Lovers Do - Peyups)
"Jamie is just a matter of choice for you but a matter of life or death for me."
~ Kevin (Stained Glass)
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Sometimes we get confused on who/what to follow..Some people say "If you love someone, let him go"..While some people say, "If you love someone, fight for him".. Yeah right, talk about inconsistensies..When somebody asked me, "so what should I really have to do? Do I have to let him go or fight for him?"..It's a good thing I came across one of the quotes mentioned above while reading "Tuesdays with Morrie" (segway, this book's the best! It made me cry..As in! A must read!) Anyway, Morrie mentioned in the book, "Don't let go too soon, but don't hang on too long"..I think this settles it..We hang on a while to try to fight for our love but we should also always know when to let go..Letting go too soon might hurt, but hanging on too long but to no avail will definitely hurt more..And of course, it always depends on the situation, fight for him if he still loves you, but let him go if he doesn't anymore..Fighting for someone who already surrendered even before the battle began is definitely useless..You'll just find yourself getting wounded, bleeding, or worse, dead..
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Really getting addicted to movies..The boredom of summer classes keeps me geared up to watch movies and wipes out my allowance clean faster than the running time of "Kingdom of Heaven"..Imagine, out of the 7 movies shown at robinson's place manila, I've seen 6 of them (wedding date, guess who, the jacket, the ring of the nibelungs, the interpreter, sahara) in 1 week only..The latest I saw was Kingdom of Heaven..Seen it at greenbelt..
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Astig to...
Anagrams are letters of a word or phrase so
transposed as to make a different word or phrase
Here are some weird anagrams:
GEORGE BUSH:
When you rearrange the letters: HE BUGS GORE
DORMITORY:
When you rearrange the letters: DIRTY ROOM
EVANGELIST:
When you rearrange the letters: EVIL'S AGENT
PRESBYTERIAN:
When you rearrange the letters: BEST IN PRAYER
DESPERATION:
When you rearrange the letters: A ROPE ENDS IT
THE MORSE CODE:
When you rearrange the letters: HERE COME
DOTS
SLOT MACHINES:
When you rearrange the letters: CASH LOST IN
ME
MOTHER-IN-LAW:
When you rearrange the letters: WOMAN HITLER
SNOOZE ALARMS:
When you rearrange the letters: ALAS! NO MORE
Z ' S
A DECIMAL POINT:
When you rearrange the letters: I ' M A DOT IN
PLACE
THE EARTHQUAKES:
When you rearrange the letters: THAT QUEER
SHAKE
ELEVEN PLUS TWO:
When you rearrange the letters: TWELVE PLUS
ONE
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New found friends/gimik buddies:
Pericles Mallari II - Pey-Pey [cute and rich]
Harlan (don't know the surname) - Chiko [cool and jolly]
*met them at eastwood at the basement*
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We're going to banahaw on sunday! Field trip sa P.I. 100! I'm beyond excited! Haha! (",)
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[Tuesday, April 12, 2005]
Fruitful (?)/productive (?) things I've done lately: *wink*
~ finished reading "Can you keep a secret?" by sophie kinsella (cool book..really funny..haha..)
~ had my hair cut (its pretty short already..well, way shorter than before obviously..i like it anyway..)
~ accompanied my brother to Manila Doctor's College for his college application (yep..I'm a good sister..hehe..)
~ watched movies: robots, ms. congeniality 2, the pacifier, closer, sahara (I just love watching movies!)
~ watched dvds and vcds: cold mountain, troy (again!), lord of the rings (again!), ms. congeniality 1, my bestfriend's wedding, mean girls, just married, hulk (again!), the prince and me (again!)..Movie marathon ito..Hehe..
~ went to PGH with aye reece and ian for a chest x-ray (for my annual physical exam..)
~ finished my required number of deliveries--actual and assisted--in fabella (yes! 5 actual and 5 assisted deliveries! I'm overwhelmed!)
~ got my classcard in N5-Pharmacology (yep! 2.5! I made it! I won't repeat n5! and thank GOD, third year na ko!)
~ helped a close friend with her lovelife problem (i know..its everyone's problem..)
~ bought a new pair of earrings, sunglasses, and lip gloss (vanity strikes again! hehe!)
Plans for the 5 remaining days of my vacation before summer classes start (waaah!):
~ learn how to drive (hopefully..)
~ overnight swimming with my closest friends (yahoo!!!)
~ enroll for summer classes (aaaargh!)
~ lose weight (wish ko lang!)
~ attend cavite national science high school's recognition and graduation day (yep..goin to visit my dear alma mater..)
~ watch more movies (i'm really getting addicted..)
~ update my blog more often (badtrip ang internet dito samin..)
~ make testimonials for my friends (sana'y sipagin ako..)
~ eat, eat, and eat (lose weight daw oh!)
~ sleep, sleep, and sleep (self-explanatory..)
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You'll know max is around when:
1. You see purple stuff everywhere.. (purple wallet, purple fone, purple brush/comb, purple kikay kit, purple mirror, purple CD's, purple key chain, purple notebook, purple pencil/ballpen..etc..)
2. You hear someone laugh so hard that everyone in the vicinity looks at her..hehe..(sorry, can't help it..)
3. You see someone pretty and sexy! (siyempre pa! hehe!)
4. You see someone look at her fone and her mirror every 5 mins..hehe..(exaggeration na po ito..)
5. You hear someone talk about her experiences in the hospital (PGH, Fabella) or talk about her patient's case..(it's sometimes boring but most of the time exciting..hehe..)
6. You hear someone complain about papers and exams and talk about UPCN toxicity..(malala talaga!)
7. You hear someone talk about cute guys..(haha!)
8. You see eds, dangell, lors, joy, ice, and love together..(hehe..basta nandiyan sila, nandon din ako! actually kahit sina eds, gell, at lors lang together, nandun din ako! And when you see aye reece around, definitely, nandon din ako..hehe..)
9. You see someone smile and say "ang cute nung baby!!!" out loud if someone with a baby passes by..(i love babies!)
10. You hear someone talk about movies..(well, basically, when you hear someone "talk" about practically anything..andaldal ko talaga! hehe!)
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